Dear Universe

I know you hate me. But I'm gonna need you to stop kicking me in the balls this year. Thanks for having me fall for a girl and then dream about her getting engaged. Thanks for having it come true a few days after me dreaming about it and then have her shove it in my face on facebook...I think i should put off facebook for the rest of my life. Thanks for having my best friend come into town and then having the girls he pissed off get mad at me while I was trying to forget about the previous mentioned statement. Then thanks for having me get a massive hangover yesterday, I felt physically miserable along with me being slightly mentally miserable. Now my awesome Avengers tickets for this Thursday is on the line because one of the girls who is mad at my best friend is the one who has my ticket. I know I'm a terrible person in your eyes universe but man this is getting taxing...Maybe I did something is wrong and now Karma is coming to get me.

This weekend sucks. and now I'm bored at home. I think I'm miserable and now I have no idea where I go from here.

When You Finally Realize that You moved on from it all

I'm armed with the past, the will and a Brick. I might not want you back but I want to kill him.

I haven't found the need to complain about her in a while and that was the main point of this blog. Complain about a girl who I thought returned my feelings. Right now I don't have any need to complain about her. Its crazy that she's really adamant about me meeting her current boyfriend, which I find that she's kind of to stupid to realize how I feel about this. Okay stupid is kind of hurtful...absent minded? Either way I find it really weird that she wants me to meet this guy. I mean would you want to meet your crush's current boyfriend/girlfriend? Thats just fucking weird. Luckily I've gotten use to not seeing her all the time now and I'm perfectly fine with it. She's also way to caught up in this guy to hang out with her friends anymore so my state of emotional flux has gone down.

I hate today. I started off my day with a crappy dream about her engaged to her boyfriend. I know it's a ridiculous thing to dream about. Sadly there's a small part of me who believes that this is probably going to happen. And that small part of me is regretting not getting a chance. But it's a stupid thing to worry about and I realized how little I affect her life so me complaining about it is going to deaf ears. I just want to smash their faces in with a bat and just break everything in my sight. Today sucked plain and simple.

I miss watching Chuck.

Atleast I have my friends.

You can only say "Fuck you" for so long until you learn to just let it go. I've moved on and it's evident. So tell me where do I go from here?